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Kyrie ([personal profile] oratoria) wrote2025-04-28 10:10 pm
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[It's not reflected in his expression at all, but Vergil is pleased when she accepts the first apology. Kyrie is an emotional young woman, that much is absolutely for certain, but she doesn't appear to be unreasonable in Vergil's experience of her thus far. Still, it's encouraging to know that she understands his need to be more pragmatic rather than immediately the most honest with her in the beginning, and it's good that she recognizes his intentions were not based in intentional deception for the sake of it or for his own benefit. He nods slightly at the boundaries she sets in how they will talk about this.]

Yes.

[It's fair. And it means it will be far less likely that uglier emotions will slip from him as it had that day with Nero. It still all worked out with Nero despite, but... Vergil was far less confident that would be the case with Kyrie. He tugs a little at his collar as he steps around to sit on the couch. Or, more accurately, he perches on the very edge of a couch cushion, holding his hand in front of himself with his elbows rested on his knees. He draws a few deep breaths, silent for the moment as he organizes his thoughts and tries to find the best place to begin. Nero said he told Kyrie everything, but there are things Nero does not know—things Vergil does not wish to speak of to anyone—and Nero likely holds his own biases as far as what he feels is important to be shared.]

I am not certain what exactly Nero said to you, but given that you're willing to hear me out, I imagine he told you I was dying when I attacked him. [Vergil draws another steadying breath before saying,] I had spent nearly the entirety of Nero's life in the Underworld. The specifics of what happened there matters little beyond that I was rapidly running out of time when I attacked Nero for the Yamato. I did not know who he was to me, but even if I had, I do not know I would have been in the state of mind to see more than an obstacle standing in the way of my survival.

[Vergil knows acknowledging that piece of information is not liable to win him any favors with Kyrie, but it was the honest truth he provided Nero when they discussed this before. He cannot provide a detail like that to Nero, but keep it from Kyrie.]

My intention was solely to reclaim the Yamato as quickly as possible before I lost the strength to wield it. Whether Nero lived or died at the time was of no consequence to me. [Vergil shakes his head a little and lifts his gaze back up to Kyrie.] I have not and will not apologize for prioritizing or desiring my survival. But there shall never be a day that goes by that I do not regret the harm I inflicted on Nero. Regardless of my reasons for it, the truth remains that I selfishly maimed him and left him to die.

[Swallowing thickly, Vergil's gaze drops to the floor for a moment before he makes himself look at her again. He doesn't particularly want to with the amount of shame and guilt that rise up within him, that will always be with him every time he thinks of that day in the garage when he stole the Yamato back. Nero has forgiven him. But Vergil? Vergil hasn't forgiven himself. He doesn't really think it's possible. The only thing he can do is not allow himself to dwell on it in such a way that he would chance missing out on what's in front of him. They moved past it. Together. But there's another sense of shame and guilt that comes up when he looks at Kyrie now, one that he doesn't know right now if he will be able to move past with her. A potential fact that he only has himself to blame for as much as he wishes there was something or someone else to heap it onto.]

I still almost took him away from you. And for that, I am sorry, Kyrie. [He purses his lips slightly.] I know what it is to have a loved one violently ripped away from you and to find yourself alone. It's... [Words fail him that Vergil almost feels he doesn't even know what he was about to say. He shakes his head a little, dismissing whatever the rest of that sentence would have been as unimportant and not the point.] I had no right to place you that fear within you that day, let alone possibly make you live through it. You did not deserve that any more than the physical harm Nero had to endure at my hand.